so as of this past week i found out that i'm going to be needing surgery. i've never had surgery before so i'm fairly nervous. i have to go back to the doctors on wednesday to get a referral for a surgeon then, i gotta figure out when the heck it's happening!

   i hate hospitals...i hate needles and i don't know if this is going to be an overnight thing or not but i really hope that its not because i've never stayed overnight at a hospital either. i've been told i'll be fine but i'm kinda worried about accidentally throwing myself into a panic/anxiety attack. i know i'm not going to die or anything because as far as i know it's not life threatening.

the doctors originally want to do a biopsy (found a small lump in my chest, it's kinda painful at times) but i figure they might as well take the whole thing out while they're in there, right?

   wish me luck on not having a panic attack before surgery lol.

also some new deviations will be up soon i just need to scan them on my bf's scanner, lol.